Steady as we go...

Well hello everyone. Life has been HECTIC this past month! What is new? Is it just me or are things just getting more stressful and our lives getting busier by the year? Do I need a holiday or what???!!! I think with a non event Summer we have just experienced I need to find something to give me a feeling of being on holiday! So have booked a weekend in the New Forest and Bournemouth as have never been and they are close but far enough away.

Since my last entry at the end of August things have been very much UP and DOWN. This is life I suppose! I reduced my weight by 4 pounds at the beginning of the month and now have put back on 3 of those pounds! So overall still up by 5 pounds since I went onto Core Management. This stage of the programme is totally voluntary as in you go to the weekly meetings if you wish (free of charge) and buy food packs if you wish, so am entirely self reliant. SCARY!!!!!!! I am finding that life is taking over yet again and I am having to keep an eye on my eating habits as those little devils keep creeping back into my life! Ugh.. by now you would have thought I had a handle on some of it but surprise - no I don't! What I do have however is a better understanding of why it is happening, recognising it for what it is and being able to do something about it straight away!

It is fundamental for me to keep going to the weekly sessions as it is the only thing that is keeping me accountable. This may not be the same for everyone as some may feel they are no longer benefiting from the sessions but I am and NEED to keep going as I do not feel 100% assured that I am in control of my eating habits. Sometimes I really don't feel like going as I know I have picked up weight,however this is exactly when I need to go to face it and say OK now lets get back on track. This can be difficult even for someone like me who is really confident about things, as you really feel disappointed in yourself for letting the weight slip yet again! I have these great days where I don't feel like food and have to remember to eat, and then other days where I could eat everything in the house! Definitely attached to emotional eating of all kinds! It is a skill to recognise it BEFORE you put the food in your mouth and not afterwards when you then feel really rubbish yet again!

I so seriously need to go and exercise. Doing Pilates once a week is having no effect but I thoroughly enjoy it so combined with a bit more exercise I think will be the answer. How long have I been TALKING about doing additional exercise and yet I STILL HAVE NOT DONE ANYTHING ABOUT IT. Familiar behave me thinks to when I wanted to do something about my weight but kept talking about it but never did anything about it!!!!! At the moment I am struggling to keep the weight off never mind wanting to lose and additional stone! Get a grip I say to myself on a daily basis and then life takes over again!!! ENOUGH ALREADY - chatter box is going full speed. With family soon descending on me I really need to be focused and actively going to the gym and looking after myself as October is going to be a VERY busy month. I will be doing a major amount of training programmes and work load is heavy as well as parents arriving and moving in. We are still working on the finishing touches to the house so should all be sorted by early October.

Well that's all the ranting and raving from me for this month - it has been difficult but at least I am still on tract, eyesight is wonderful and always moving forward. Hope you are all doing well and that life is treating you well. Let me know how you are getting on and any advice would be GREATLY appreciated! Until next time......xxxxx